Musings

Some things to do before I die

hanamin28 — Thu, 22 Dec 2011 23:55:28 +0000

Paragliding: somewhere in Europe……

Stonehenge

Machu Picchu: take this picture and eat lunch on this spot

Pyramids in Egypt: I want to see the tombs and ride a camel as well

Brazil: Iguazu waterfall.

Rock Climbing: nothing extreme because I will surely die

and etc…and etc….and etc…..

Time to Share

hanamin28 — Wed, 21 Dec 2011 05:23:33 +0000

Cookies baked by Mikako and given to me as a farewell gift. She made it just the way I like it…….=)

Table Top canister – signed by my old co-workers. Filled with encouraging words.

The Hunger Games – Just finished this and my fingers are itching for the remaining books.

Meet Theodore! Build a bear present from my sister for X-mas. Went through the whole building process together and stuck a heart in his chest!

Craving Veggie Egg Rolls!

Tied

hanamin28 — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 04:28:17 +0000

I don’t like the fact that I’m tied down to one place 75% of my time. I wish I can win the lotto and roam the country in different seasons for years and years and years!

Currently, winter is occupying my mind and we all know California is not known for being a “winter city”.

I prefer….the Swiss alps or even beautiful Austria when it comes to beautiful wintry snow~~.

I’m stuck here in La County, but I’m thinking of you…..you random snow country…..somewhere out there where I can go explore the mountains and trees and meet the snow animals…^_^

My day

hanamin28 — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 01:11:27 +0000

It is a good day. After finishing up my errands and having a lunch date with a friend, I went home to read The Hunger Games. I purchased this book today……..and cannot wait till i finish it so I can read more~~~

I am snuggled up in bed drinking hot tea and reading to my hearts content!!

Today? Today = Good day

Treats

hanamin28 — Fri, 09 Dec 2011 02:45:15 +0000

Freshly toasted chestnuts…YUM….I cannot wait for the beautiful winter season where I can snuggle up on the couch, pop some chestnuts, and watch a great movie. Then devour some freshly peeled pom poms for dessert.

Stuck

hanamin28 — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 07:17:23 +0000

And so the rant continues…….PART II

When I get angry, I can’t sleep at night. I toss and turn and then eventually turn on my computer and look at random pictures having to do with harvest hoping that it will calm me down. Fingers are being pointed in all sorts of directions while people are unable to handle awkward moments, they bring forth more awkwardness and eventually making you feel awkward and causing everyone else to be making assumptions.

Does this make me a bad person? It feels weird holding so much power……..I feel as though I can crush and bring things to pebbles. Is that the right thing to do? It angers me when I think about the past though. I know…I know….don’t let the past consume you but it’s eating me inside turning me into a rotten apple because it was so traumatizing.

My mouth is itching to blurt everything out and walking away without a scratch on myself, but am I willing to risk it? This power that I hold is…..overwhelming.

I mean, I simply did my responsibilities yet why do I feel like a sinner?! What is this guilt looming over my shoulders? Is that just a reason? An excuse so I don’t feel as bad?

BUT looking back, I realize I am not as ruthless as I thought I could potentially be. I was ready to create some havoc!! I still am, but now that I have the opportunity to do so, I’m scared and withering away in my shell wanting to escape to a field filled with prancing ponies.

I realize I’m pretty screwed up and will probably have to see a therapist to resolve this issue because I think I’m not really moving forward/progressing because I feel stuck….stuck in this tar of misery.

I’m angry because I should be happy! Goooooooowd, this thorn is plastered on my heart and it will not budge. These remnants of negativity is just…stuck around me.

Impressed

hanamin28 — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 03:05:33 +0000

Japan’s cheerleading squad…….just WOW.

Japan’s Ninja Squad Team

Random Rants

hanamin28 — Tue, 06 Dec 2011 06:55:07 +0000

Some people can be rather frustrating…….

I mean, if there is going to be a division, couldn’t you have at least picked a more devastating reason? The reason you have now is petty, childish, and seriously not worth it! I have seen worse……..but I guess you still live in High school…

You fool, just stay in your ignorant bubble because the world is a lot scarier and if you can’t handle this then you are obviously not ready for this sick world.

Family Wedding

hanamin28 — Wed, 16 Nov 2011 03:06:34 +0000

My cousin got married in San Diego on 11.11.2011. It was a very small wedding where immediate family and a few friends were invited…..so a total of 30 people came. It was cozy and it was easy to get to know different people and hang out with family.

She’s beautiful with or without makeup

I don’t understand how they are so skinny! My sister and my cousin both eat like pigs….I just don’t get it

Walking down to the gazebo to take pictures.

Baking

hanamin28 — Tue, 15 Nov 2011 03:06:28 +0000

My friend invited me to a mini macaron lesson at someone’s house. It was fairly easy but I can see why it can go wrong in many places. I’m not a baker but….i think these batches came out rather well.

Anyways, here are some pictures of all the macarons I made with CS and DL. My pocket camera seems to be functioning at a rather low quality level…not sure what’s wrong with but I guess grainy pictures are better than no pictures yes?